My Social Life

I'm stuck up in this hospital and got no life outside this building! I can't even recall the names of my college friends. Lol! The onlyway that I link up to the world is thru internet. Though there are times that me and my collegues go out, still they are part of the hospital! I want to see new faces naman!

Okay so i got Plurk and my Facebook is glitterminded@gmail.com please add me up! 

Code Blue, What to Do?

Im reviving this cyanotic, bradycardic, apneic blog. I just can't let this one go cuz this is my first blog. And to my surprize this blog have pr2. Even my boyfriend couldn't believe it. He said it might be due to some sort of an error. Gaha! But it is pr2 for months already. Whatever the reason, even if it's just because of an error or google just loves me im still happy about it.

Back to my so called "bringing back to life" i'll be needing a cardiac monitor which is in the form of site stats. Hm, i still got visitors who maybe just didn't intend to go here and stumbled my page accidentally. Lol. Looking at the bright side, at least somebody from elsewhere come by. Gee thanks guys, whomever you are! Hak.. So the cardiac monitors says i still got a big chance for survival.

Next thing that i'll be needing are the meds. Dopamine, dobutamine, epinephrine, name it! Administer drugs and help the heart to beat.. Ahekz. Administering blog posts is vital if i want to revive this. Post post post!

Then a little bit of cpr (creativity) would help. 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5 and 6 and 7 and 8 and 9 and 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 1..... Breath, breath... Just a little (or more ahe) tweaks and now we are so close :)

I am

I am glitter. I am not perfect. I try to be the best i can be. I listen. I feel. I crave. I eat. I drink. I over spend. I sing. I sleep. I work. I get sick. I am tired. I need a break. I laugh. I think stupid thoughts. I get excited. I love. I get weak. I lie. I was betrayed. I commit mistakes. I make wrong decisions. I get hurt. I am confused. Now i cry. Get my self hanged up in a cliff with out knowing who the hell would dare to catch me and after that would not take me for granted and care for me despite of my imperfections and mood swings and would love every bit of me including my stupidity! Would you? Can you?

Reliever

as what i've said in my previous blog post, i was totally preoccupied with work. What makes it worst is due to the fact that my co-workers often seek favors to me. They ask me to relieve them for reasons in which some of them i don't know if it's for real. Actually there is this one nurse (Crazy Cat) here who frequently asks me to relieve her duty. Until some time i come to know the real reason why Crazy Cat wants to absent. Sometimes she just feels lazy she just sleep the whole day, most often than not she just party the whole night and drink. What the heck! Even if i'm being payed for the shift that i had relieved it is just irritating to think that u gave up your day off just for Crazy Cat to do things she like. She is such a spoiled brat and i won't tolerate her.

Work! Work! Work!

Hey it's been a while since i haven't posted. I have been busy, actually i still am! All i do is work, work, work, day and night. I'm starting to feel like a robot. Everyday is just a routine. I sleep, eat, then go to work. Why is this happening? My life is so BORING!

How to Be Insensitive

Emptiness is an odd feeling where in you feel alone. It is like a driving force that pulls me out of the crowd and makes me ponder things out alone. I feel indifferent with my friends, family, and boyfriend. And right now I therefore conclude that if a person is important to you, you wouldn’t tell her “kala mu susuyuin kita sa ginawa mu, bahala ka jan!” Yes, and I need your opinion about this (yes I’m talking to you, whomever you are reading this crap). And i live in a house that is not a home. Your importance depends on how much money you earn. Mapangasar, mapagmalaki, at selfish,, that is what my mom always tell my sister. If im selfish why is it that i always think of what they will say. I just wish i am.

I like the song insensitive. Cause it really speaks what I feel right now.

How do you cool your lips
after a summer's kiss?
how do you rid the sweat
after the body bliss?
how do you turn your eyes
from the romantic glare
how do you block the sound
of a voice you'd know anywhere?

Oh, I really should have known...
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
(your) casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face
that told me
maybe you might have some advice to give
on how to be
insensitive

How do you numb your skin
after the warmest touch?
how do you slow your blood
after the body rush?
how do you free your soul
after you've found a friend?
how do you teach your heart
its a crime to fall in love again?

Oh, you probably wont remember me
its probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
who went ahead and fell for you
I am out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
some advice to give on how to be
insensitive

Oh, I really should have known...
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
(your) casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face
that told me
maybe you might have some advice to give
how to be
insensitive

My Thrifty Promise

This is another year and as most people do this season, I too, will be making a list of new year’s resolution. But i think i should not do it the usual way. So, I’m not gonna make a list but instead I will focus on only one aspect. By doing so, there would be a greater chance for me to achieve my resolution. Whereas there are some people who claim that they do not want to make New Year’s resolution because they will just sooner or later break their promises, I on the other hand believe that having a positive outlook and believing in one’s self, your power to take control and restore your composure (lol) is the most important key in achieving the goal, which is to change the bad attitude and change for the better.

Back to my resolution, this 2009 I will spend my money wisely and promise to save money. Of course with the help of my financial consultant slash councilor slash boyfriend, I know that I will be able to do this. He said he will be watching my bank account keenly. Oooh, and now I’m scared. Closet will not be updated, goodbye good food, accessories and make-ups will be same old-same old and life will be hard for me! Seems like a nightmare.